All For You

a short fic by Tavia (aka Juri-san)



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All characters in this fanfiction are NOT mine.  They belong to numerous people including 
Saito Chiho, Ikuhara Kunihiko, and Be-Papas.  
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I don't know why I did it.

Oh that's a lie, Tsuchiya, and you know it.

Alright, maybe I do know why. I was in love with you. From the first moment I laid eyes 
on you. Sweaty, with shiny green eyes, looking up to me with great admiration. I was your 
sempai. As well as your captain. I saw the dedication, the passion for the sport, in those 
eyes.

I decided to take you under my wing. Half because I knew you'd benefit from my tutelage 
(I knew someday you'd make an excellent fencer) and half because I wanted to get to know 
the girl beneath those golden locks.

I flirted with you. So much so that it's funny. Do you remember it, Arisugawa? The touch 
of my hand on yours. The way I'd pull you close when demonstrating a particular stance. 
The feel of my lips on your forehead as I bade you goodnight.

I caught you by surprise with that one, didn't I?

I wanted more from you. I wanted acknowledgment that my feelings were being reciprocated. 
I wanted to see your eyes dance when you looked at me, just as I'm sure, mine danced for 
you. I wanted your lovely smile to be just for me.

But I saw it.

The pain in your eyes. Don't think I didn't notice.

It was the locket.

I knew who you held in that locket of yours. I knew what feelings you had for her. It was 
obvious. Obvious to me, anyways, because I'd learned to read your emotions a long time ago. 
Your eyes really are the windows to your soul. You looked at her the way I looked at you. 
So adoringly.

But at the same time... I saw the pain.

She hurt you somehow. Very badly, I must say, dear Juri. You twisted and became this hard 
bitter woman. What was that rumor about a teacher leaving school? The Juri I knew and 
loved couldn't possibly have done that. It was the beast the plum haired girl had created.

But you went on loving her. Caressing your locket lovingly when you were alone. Wishing, 
as I'm sure you did, that you could've been caressing her. I saw all of this, Juri.

I saw how badly the girl inside your locket tried to take things from you. She didn't want 
to be just your equal. No, she wanted to be better than you. Had to be better. And she 
would do anything, including hurting you, her supposed best friend, to achieve that.

I really began to despise her.

I had to make you see what kind of horrible person she was. Don't you see, Arisugawa, 
I did it all for you.

She was there. In the locker room. Holding onto that fencing foil and an idea formed in 
my mind. I played the game of boyfriend. She was very quite willing. I had fun toying with 
her. I could almost see why you were so fond of her.

I said almost.

Oh you know the rest of that story. The dating, the kiss by the fountain, the duel, and 
ultimately, the heartbreak.

And through it all, after everything I had shown you, you refused me. Bit my lip as I recall. 
Still you tried to protect her.You wanted her to be happy. And you clutched at that locket of 
yours. The locket I could have smashed beneath my shoe. You challenged me to a duel. All to 
protect her. Protect her innocence. To make her happy again.

I won, of course. Did you really think you could beat me? Dear girl, how could you beat the 
one who had taught you everything?

So in the end, with my prodding, you fought the duel against the girl prince. I was there to 
see it all. It was quite an experience to draw the sword from your breast. My how sensual 
it was.

Stupid girl! You could have beat Tenjou!

But it was that damn locket!

It broke... and so did you.

Dropped the rose.

And the duel was over.

But you see it now, don't you, Arisugawa? You're free of the shackles that bound you. I 
finally made you realize that you were better off without her. I did this all... all of 
it... for you.

So why do you leave me in this hospital bed to die alone?


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This was my first attempt at writing an Utena fanfic.  I think it turned out all right.
I don't like Tsuchiya Ruka.  I have no idea what possessed me to write this fic.  Especially
with him as the main character.  My favorite character would have to be Arisugawa Juri.  
Some people said it made them feel sorry for Ruka.  That wasn't what I exactly intended with
this but looking back on it, I suppose it is a little sad.

I'd like to thank my friends on LiveJournal for all of the wonderful comments on my story.
Utena-san (we shall duel again, Tenjou), Akiotena, Waka-chan, Anshi-chan (who actually
inspired me to write this unknowingly), Himemiya, and Shiori!  *bows*  Arigato minna-san!

If you have any comments or suggestions, please direct them towards:
arisugawa_juri_san@yahoo.com