I don't own these characters and I'm not making one red cent off this. I thought that this story would simply be a one shot but one review managed to convince me otherwise. I don't think that there will be another installment. Confession Part Two By Selenite He took you. He took you right in front of me just as he did her. After all the things I've done to hurt you, to destroy your innocence over the years, I don't think I will ever recover from what he did to you. No, he did it to both of us. The game was closing, the duels were ending. But I still had one final duel against Utena. After all my attempts to make her into a normal, conquerable girl and one night of unmasked vulnerability, I lost her. The End of the World took her from me. At that very same time, we became close again. You were still sullen and angry and I was still thinking of her and revolution and yet….we were together. Were we really recapturing some of the bond of our long ago? Truthfully, I only came back to you because he said it was alright. It was supposed to be just part of the game. "It's alright isn't it? Be nice to your friend." I had laughed and something about him being evil. I should have realized that he had something planned. His games were always far beyond mine. You received me with distrust and resentfulness. This intrigued me since you weren't nearly so resentful about losing to Utena for the third time. Just days later you were merrily camping your heart out in the forest. It actually hurt me a bit that you didn't welcome me with open arms. That it hurt me was also infuriating. I was there out of no concern for your well being, intending to use you yet again and you still could this to me. You asked me questions about Akio and Anshii, not really expecting any truthful answers. But I gave you the truth. Why shouldn't I? You already knew the truth, the End of the World. What was to be gained by keeping you in the dark? Yet, you received each answer with a shrug signifying that you didn't believe me. This wounded me even more. Then you asked the most difficult questions, the ones about me. You wanted to know how long I've been serving the End of the World (funny, I didn't think of it that way at the time), what I planned to do with Utena, and what did I really want from the duels. My throat caught. How on earth could I tell you that I really didn't know anymore? I was certain of this much: I wanted you for myself or to be at least free of your power, that damned spell that your innocence cast so long ago. I wanted Utena because she reminded me of you when we were so young together. That much I was sure of. But I would have rather died than tell you that, to let you know the kind of hold you had on me. You simply accepted my silence. Looking back, I wish I had taken you right then before he did. But it's too late now, isn't it? I also wish that I asked you a few things. Was your "something eternal" what I insinuated in the car? Did it truly have anything to do with me? Why were you calmer than I've seen you in a long time? And why did you ever hit Anshii? You never hit anyone like that before the duels. Was this calmness simply a return to your former self? Yes, I wish that I had asked you. But I was afraid of the answers that you would give me. That night didn't turn out at all like I thought it would. My world, my self-concept was crumbling. I had severely damaged my relationship with my sister. Utena was falling a little more under his spell every day. And it was becoming alarmingly apparent that I was no equal to the End of the World. I was merely another pawn. I began to cling to you although I didn't want it to look that way. I was desperate for something constant and dependable. You were always that to me. I think you needed something to cling to as well in spite of your apparent calmness. We were there for each other, almost like it used to be. The End of the World and I had a little competition: who would be able to charm Utena. There was no hope for me. She was integral to his plans and whatever chance I had died when she first defeated me. But that was slowly becoming unimportant. At first I only wanted her for my own selfish reasons. But owning her no longer mattered. What mattered was getting her out of his grasp even if that meant dueling again. Did this mean that I loved her? I still don't know in spite of the answer I gave you. In order to save her, to be a just be a prince for once, I needed your help. I always need you. I always will and I wish I knew that before. As always, you knew what was going on. This time however you didn't bury it under denial You demanded a final answer on my feelings for Utena. You even asked if I was truly happy serving Akio or "kissing his ass so much" as you so delicately put it. But in the end, you acquiesced to me and I suppose that's what truly mattered. You agreed to be my rose bride. We lost the duel. It was another thing that I should have known. I should have listened to your warnings, Kyouichi. You were always so wise when you weren't in denial. But I still couldn't save her. You asked me something, "Is it over…for us". What did you mean by that? Did you even know or could it have been what I once hoped for? Was there really a chance for you to belong to me after all? That day as we lay on our backs in the arena, an idea formed. I would never own Utena. That I would have to accept, painful as it was. She couldn't save me from you and I couldn't save her from the End the World. But perhaps there was hope of owning you. We recieved our farewell letters. But the End of the World wanted to see the both of us for talk. And pictures. I knew perfectly well what taking pictures with Akio meant. I had an opportunity. That night I could hide my need for you behind one last manipulation. But this time would be special. I would make you mine in one very unmistakable, important way. After the pictures were taken, my seduction began. You shirt was undone. Your mouth was parted and soft, just like it was when I first met you. Your body was under me, silent and accepting. Perhaps it was only the bike ride earlier that allowed this but your acceptance thrilled me. But before I could plant one kiss on your lips, he pulled me away from you smirking. He took you away form me right there before my very eyes. And you accepted it just as you were about to accept me! How could I have known that robbing me of Utena wouldn't be enough for him? He had to rob me of you as well. He must have planned it right from when he told me that it would be alright. To actually shove it in my face, the taking of the one I truly wanted. For so long I've wanted to be free of you. Before I just wanted you, my little pure-hearted prince. Kyouichi, I don't know if I can survive this. I know now that I've loved you since we were children. I could never be happy without you even if there was Utena. And I accept it. Is this what your mystifying calmness was, acceptance? What are we going to do? Your innocence is gone. I'm afraid of opening myself up to you. Can we work together, Kyouichi? Perhaps we could recover your innocence and even mine since from before my parents died (if I ever had t). Or maybe we don't need innocence anymore. Perhaps maturity will work for us just as well. I swear that I won't hurt you. I don't have the heart or the strength for that anymore. Maybe we'll be alright together. Finally with you, I may have the revolution that I've always wanted.